Medical Technology

As I thought about this weekend it reminded me that it was Fast Sunday. For those of you that don't know what that is then I will share it with you. It basically allows the members of the ward to stand up and share their personal testimony of our gospel.

A few months ago I shared my testimony in church and I was overwhelmed with the spirit. I could have blabbed about so many different things but one thing I brought up was that I was thankful for medical technology. I knew I was pregnant back then but I didn't know the circumstances of our little boy. As I went through nursing school I often thought about how awesome God was to give us the intelligence to provide us with such technology. I know that doctors and medical staff have studied for centuries about the body and the things that can go wrong with it. As I worked in the hospital environment I couldn't count how many lives were saved by the use of this medical technology. It is truly miraculous. I never knew how much my testimony would grow about this certain subject.

As time has passed we have had countless doctors say that when they went through medical school HLHS babies would not survive. The medical technology was simply not there. These precious gifts would pass away in a few short days and their families would be left devastated. In the last 20 years research for HLHS has really improved and so has the technology. The surgeries that are performed are miracles. I feel that the doctors that do these amazing surgeries have hands from God. They have studied and studied these procedures and with the advancement of medical technology they have discovered ways to keep HLHS babies alive. Can you believe this? I have always thirsted for knowledge and I am so grateful that I can continue learning. I am so grateful that I live in a time where knowledge is power. I am so thankful that God has placed these special doctors and this technology before us. I am so grateful He gave us the knowledge and power to strive for things and to make goals. I can not express to you how much I am grateful for knowledge. I never knew that his knowledge was going to help save our little boy. I can not explain to you how thankful I am that I know that this little boy is coming to a wonderful home where his mind will be challenged. I can only hope that our little boy may give doctors more answers to the things they have been searching for. I am so grateful to have the opportunity to have this sweet baby boy. I am so thankful to be apart of his life whether it be long or short. I know that I am going on and on about this but I am just so thankful.

I have my days where I still break down in the shower or during a special moment in church. I still have those days when I wonder why God chose us. I still have moments when I cry at the drop of a hat. I still pray for a healthy baby boy every night. I still wonder if I can pick a name that will be suitable for such a sweet boy. I still have days that I just cry and cry but when Seth comes home he would never know. I still spend hours online researching HLHS and read stories about other patients. I still have days that I thank God for rewarding me with such an opportunity. Does God really think I am strong enough for this? To be honest, I know I am strong enough and prepared for this opportunity. I can not explain the calmness that I get when I think about my son. I can not explain what it feels like to know that this little spirit will be here in just 9 short weeks. My life is going to change forever. I can only end this by saying that I know God lives. I know that The Church of Jesus Christ of Latter Day Saints is the true church. I know God has a plan for me and I know that this baby is coming to the right family. I know that I will forever remember how I feel in this very moment and remember that I was strong. With Heavenly Father by my side I know I can do this. We can do this. In the name of Jesus Christ, Amen.