We are going home!

Yes, that was a quick surgery and we are happy to get out of here! 

He is out!

The surgery went well and quick. We are thrilled to see him. He is not a happy camper at the moment.

Urology Surgery Update 1

Stockton was just taken back. They pulled him through the doors in a big wagon. He actually was really happy because they let him have an iPad. We hope to have an update soon.

Urology Surgery

We are here at Primary Children's for Stockton's urology surgery. They say the surgery shouldn't last long. They have told us that it is a simple surgery but with Stockton nothing is ever simple. He will be taken back in an hour or so. My heart breaks for him because he is so attached to us. I hate when they wheel him away and he screams. Keep him in your prayers!

Urology Surgery

Recently, we were told that Stockton needed to have a minor urology surgery. This will happen later this month at Primary Children's. I feel that sometimes Stockton can't catch a break. Every time he is wheeled off to surgery or has some type of invasive procedure I look at his sad face. Sometimes he screams and yells, "Mommy, please, Mommy!" Other times he is so relaxed because this is his normal. Those are the moments I dread. Those are the moments that I wish I could take his place. Those are the moments that I fall to my knees and ask, "Why?" This strong boy of mine is such a miracle. If you could hear him talk and run around you could feel the spiritual energy that this boy carries. I hate having him go through this life unhealthy and I hate that the things he goes through have to be done for him to survive. I don't think that this will ever get easier. I don't think that my prayers will ever end without tears streaming down my face. Every night I place my hand on his chest, just before I go to bed, and feel him take a few deep breaths. I walk around to my other children's rooms and do the same thing to them. Somehow each day I grow a little bit stronger and each day my love for my children grows. I wish that no parent had to watch their child suffer and no one had to lose a child. This minor surgery coming up is scary for us because he has to be put under sedation, again. The cardiac team has to be there and they will keep us posted. As this approaches I can't stop thinking about next year when he has his 3rd open heart surgery. I don't want it to come. I don't want him to scream and cry and wonder why his Mommy left him. I don't want him to think that I am abandoning him. The other surgeries he doesn't remember, this one he will. I am scared to death about losing any of my children. Stockton's body may not be too strong but with the Armour of God he will do great things.